a musing moment

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Discombobulated

dis com bob' u late, v.t. to upset. [Slang.]

Not a word I use every day, but the only one that comes to mind to describe my current state. Why am I discombobulated? Glad you asked...

The reason: someone very close to me has recently undergone some significant changes. Positive changes, but changes nontheless. And changes, by their very nature, require that we adapt to them.

So here I am. Discombobulated. Unsettled. Working very hard at this whole adapting thing, though the new situation feeling somewhat surreal. It'll probably just take some time for me to adjust, no matter how much effort I expend. But I don't want it to take time. I want to get un-discombobulated right away. ("Combobulated" isn't a word. I checked.)

Reminds me of one of my husband's favorite adages: "People often prefer familiar problems over unfamiliar solutions." In this instance, even though I wasn't particularly pleased with the familiar "problem", the unfamiliar "solution" was implemented by someone else, placing me the role of observer. No hands on. Someone else in control.

Oops. Did I just use the "C" word?

Once again, I find myself in my little dinghy on the Sea of Life amidst Waves of Change. Unfamiliar new circumstances with unfamiliar new implications, the only part of the scenario actually within my control being my response to them.

So during my current discombobulation, I'm deliberately choosing my response: to await the calmer Having-Finished-My-Adapting-Process Waters patiently. I could wrestle with what is outside my control, but then my little vessel might take on some saltwater, or I might even rock my little dinghy to the point of capsizing. No, a much more peaceful response would be to look expectantly toward the horizon, knowing I have passed through these choppy Waters of Change before, and I am able to navigate them yet again.

Ahoy! Who's that I spy in a small verssel over yonder, bobbing among White Caps of Challenge? Why, it appears to be you!

Cheers, Mate! We're in this together.

Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the LORD!
-- Psalm 27:14 NKJV

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